Hello. Sem exams are next week, I am still stupid and I will fail the shit out of that stupid exam. I will proceed to get shit from my parents and well, yeah I wouldn't really want to think about what would actually happen if my parents got all pissed off about how badly I'm coping with all of this.

You know what sucks? Having absolutely no space, not even in the deepest recesses of your own head, where you feel completely at peace. Im quite confident that the word for it is "bliss". Because when I close my eyes at night I am running as fast as my feet can carry me and at 5 45 in the morning I rise only to feel completely exhausted and really really reluctant to face whatever horrid that lie in wait in front of me for the day.

Then I proceed to go to college which is a hellhole where all I do is study. After that its traveling for well, depending on the weather, 40 min to 2 1/2 hours. Then I get home only to go out again from dinner, listen to whining at the dinner table and of course come home to study. Oh, I also get nagged for being a horrible unloving daughter as well as not doing enough house work because I'm ONLY out of the house from 7 30 to 9 everyday.

OBVIOUSLY I STILL HAVE AMPLE TIME TO CLEAN YOUR FILTER AND PICK UP DOG SHIT IN THE DARK AND FINISH MY HOMEWORK.

Sleep is just overrated right, who's the bastard who decided we should waste precious time on it anyways.

Sigh.

then I proceed to think to myself, why. It feels as if my sole purpose on this planet is to shoulder the karmic suffering of the planet or something. Between my back, my home, college, spm results, a levels, my eternal lack of appetite and general thoughts of throwing myself in front of a speeding vehicle, it's really becoming a pain just getting though everyday.

No sir I am not suicidal I am just very very tired of being tired. I am tired of acting. I am tired of being the "responsible" daughter.

And I think to myself now,

How am I ever going to get out of this shithole.



Ok back to studying YIPEE LET'S GO

#EXCITED