My theories about my overall happiness with life this year has been proven again and again.

I noticed a pattern about the events that have happened throughout the course of my year. A disastrous event always follows a good one.

Disastrous volleyball mssd was followed by an amazing volleyball msss which preceded the disappointing &depressing athletics mssd (for various reasons).

Then came the bittersweet indoor ultimate open and the amazing u19 ultimate hat during the school holidays. After that it was the almost horrid LUCT.

Then my team emerged as the state champions during the mighty minds challenge. When trials started and I started studying, everything went downhill from there.

After scoring moderately well for trials (for my parents at least) I started studying for spm (which sucked). my team placed sixth during the mighty minds national challenge, with the top 5 receiving cash prizes and recognition. finally when spm was over I had the best tourney experience at the u18 open.

Then my grandfather and my mum's long term staff (whom I've known my entire life) passed away with a day in between. It was, and still is, a hard time for my family, having to cope with these losses.

The fact that I missed prom is tiny in comparison, but nevertheless painful in every way possible.

I will be going to Phuket on Monday morning after my grandpa's funeral on Sunday and hopefully my family will have the time to regroup and recharge enough to face 2013, which was never supposed to happen since the world should have ended yesterday.

My conclusion from 2012 is that I should never be too happy after something good, as I should never be too depressed when something devastating happens.

Life is a cycle, and mine happens to be an emotional roller coaster.

May the odds ever be in your favour.