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Thursday, October 4, 2012 @ 10:49 PM

For a teenager I find myself surprisingly void of material longing. Sure, I like pretty things and I sure as hell would love to have enough money to buy pretty and often expensive material items, but I never linger over things I cannot afford and I often forget about them within the hour.

It's not in my nature to go all out on shopping.

When my mother brought up the usual important examination bet, which is the normal asian "carrot" system where you get rewarded for excellent (and only excellent, mind you) grades during important examinations, I came up with nothing. NIL, NADA, NOTHING.

I found myself perfectly content with whatever I have, with no longing for any items whatsoever. My phone is awesome, my shoes I can buy, my bag is fine, I don't need to spend much on shopping and I don't really shop much to begin with.

Instead, all I want is my parents to support me in pursuing my sports. No, I don't plan on becoming a sportsperson, and neither do I have the capabilities to do so as of now. However, I feel that my happiness is strongly tied to being able to play sports at a slightly higher level than just 'for fun'. I want to be able to experience the sports I play at a slightly higher level and make the most out of my youth.

This, requires my parents to place a certain amount of trust in me, and most definitely some of their time. I will have to ask them to ferry me to the occasional night time session, or maybe to a competition venue and sometimes even buy me some sportswear to aid me.

You can't buy time, and you can't exactly buy that level of support. But that's what came to mind when i asked myself what I really want.

Unfortunately, my parents do not have the time to do so, and yeah I will not dwell on this.

So, I need not anything.