I keep telling myself, one day you'll look back and remember only the good things. I feel myself second guessing my decisions of late and I often find myself in a tug of war between what I want today, and what I would want on the future.

My current self wants time, and by time I mean time not wasted doing things that I could live without. I could spend that time giving tlc to my 2 barbaric demon dogs, or watering my plants and doing my homework.

Even so,

I know my future self would regret like mad if I gave up this near the finishing line. I know for a fact that looking back on something is much easier than actually getting your hands dirty doing it. Camps are a fairly good example, since they often involve a certain degree of annoying and irritating factors that seem to vanish into oblivion when one recounts the memory of a camp. Hence, I am led to believe that one day, far far in the future, I would be proud of myself for actually trying something, and seeing it through.

And so, I am here, folding my running vest and long sleeved shirt hoping that tomorrow would bring better prospects for me, and I wouldn't do so horribly again. I wouldn't count on a medal, but not embarrassing myself would be great as well :)

Contrary to what my parents want, I still have not slowed down my non-academic related activities even though it is already fast approaching the month of April. Mid terms are coming soon and I'm having mixed feelings about my lack of studying, with one side of myself giving me pats on the back for being so damn badass (by Asian standards) and on the other hand I'm dying inside knowing that every day not spent mugging equates to one step away from a scholarship that I so bloody need.

I'll figure out something soon. In the meantime, I'll completely ignore my parents' orders and play for sabretooth in the indoor tourney on 21 April :p