Hawaii's a no-go. Too expensive. Flight ticket and small stuff here and there already add up to 5.7k per person. I can't make my mother spend that kind of money.

We're not rich and I don't like throwing away a month of my parents pay for a two week trip. I can't, no matter how tempting it is to be selfish.

Moving on, my life's been one big mess these days. Work work train train lack of sleep stressed out to the max:I I find myself always giving my commitment to people without thinking ahead, and end up regretting almost exactly 10 minutes after I decide to take on jobs I should have known I couldn't handle.

Should have the 'do I really have enough time for this' conversation in my head before commiting to anything.

Lesson learnt.

Athletics has been ok. Slowly improving day by day, trying to keep up with the senior athletes. I still drag myself to training (yes, drag.) 3 times a week for now and I plan to go for training for 4 days a week come mssd.

I'll give it my all for now so I don't regret anything later. Even so I can never enjoy running as much as I enjoy volleyball. Maybe it's because I feel lonely while running, because it's mostly you vs yourself. In volleyball there's always a team, a support system which takes care of you when you're at your lowest. But nevertheless it's still amazing when you get to see yourself improve day by day. It's almost addictive at times.

Other than that, my studies have gone to hell and I can't bring myself to give a shit.

Toodles :)