Mssd.

I was nervous as heck. I was afraid of so many possibilities. I couldn't bring myself to trust every member of my team, and in the end we lost all the games in the semi finals.

We couldn't even secure third place, and I feel responsible for that. I still feel regret for making wrong decisions, but life is life, and one must move on.

Even so, in an unexpected turn of events, I was selected to be in the second selection for the district team. My teacher advisor had put my name in at the last minute, to fill up empty spaces in the team and I was to fight for my place in the real team with 13 others.

It was a bittersweet moment, because I knew that i couldn't make it in because of my skill, but only because my teacher was nice enough to put in my name. I was disappointed because my two friends who had accompanied me throughout this experience couldn't make it in to the second selection with me.

I still took this chance with an open mind and I was determined to fight for my place in the team no matter how incompetent I thought myself to be.

Msss.

I walked into catholic high for the first training session feeling lost. All the rest came in pairs or groups, with multiple players chosen from their school. I was, alone. Nevertheless, I completed my training, made a feeble attempt to socialize and went back feeling more confident that I was going to be kicked out than ever.

Training was hard. Even so, everyday was less emotionally tough as the days passed by. I was making friends, and I finally felt that I was improving. I was given the position of libero and I trained my butt off for it everyday. Looking back, I feel accomplished for being able to do 1000 digs against the wall, being able to dig a float serve, and being able to hold my own against every other member of the team. I discovered so much about myself in the process of working myself half to death.

I'm so grateful for being able to be under the instruction of not one, but two national coaches. I'm so blessed to be able to train one on one with a national player. I'm so blessed to be able to play with the best team in petaling Utama.

During the last day of training, coach andy had us play against the u15 team (which is actually really good for their age) with a 10 point handicap for every set. We lost most of the sets, because of the handicap but for the last set, coach took away the handicap and let both sides start with a score of 0-0.

That was the best game we ever played as a team, by my observations.

My first time walking into the kuala selangor stadium swept me off my feet. An air conditioned indoor court with the floor as smooth as it should be, no irritating trees, wind and sunshine to disturb anyone. It was all very new to me.

The two days passed by in a blur. I honestly didn't play well at all, but I've come to forgive myself for it. We made it into finals and I came back from msss with my one and possibly only msss medal that I'll ever get.

I'll treasure this experience for life :)