i have spent a total of 3 days in school and i already feel like shitting bricks.

first of all, volleyball mssd is going to be held on the 31st of january. MSSM ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS? WHO CAME UP WITH THIS BULLSHIT. minusing the chinese new yar holidays, i only have at the most 8 training sessions with the team. EIGHT. combined with my self-training which i will be doing every other day, i hope to have at least 17-18 training sessions with outside teams. which means i have to train everyday starting from this sunday.

how to not be stressed till you wanna die. pn ernice i miss you so much that im going to give you a call today and cry. ):

im also starting to get freaked out by spm, which is still a long time away, but from experience, time freaking flies when you're busy. and im going to be pretty busy for the first few months of the year. i find that sometimes i expect too much from myself, but im too lazy to give my all in things that i don't enjoy, namely studying.

how, you tell me how.

my back is also worrying me. im constantly in fear that my scoliosis has progressed further and i might have to get a titanium rod in my back, limiting me for the rest of my life. i know that i have to follow up on my treatment, but the brace is restrictive and uncomfortable. not only that, i have major body issues to deal with already even without the usage of the brace. wearing the brace is definitely a physically and mentally challenging ordeal which i've for now given up on. im too weak to face this many things at once, and the brace is definitely one of the bigger howdyousayy weights on my shoulders.

and in an unrelated matter, there's this idiot who decided to move to australie without telling anyone about it, until the last minute. big bitch. i want to spike him repeatedly with a volleyball.


k bye.