so, it's exactly one month to finals. honestly i can't remember what the hell i've been doing for the past 8 months for it to pass by so bloody fast, but im pretty sure it was a mixture of euphoria, heartache, stress, regrets and carefree moments. i feel like my life's passing by me in hyperspeed and before i can even stop to reflect on my actions, the moments flips by me, and im already expected to handle the next bundle of work/activities which i do not particularly enjoy.

why is it so. why can't my life pass by slowly for abit so i can stop to look back at my life and actually be proud of something i've done, instead of worrying about the report i have to finish and print and hand up by TONIGHT. not to forget the updated duty list, list of merits of every single librarian, updating the merit demerit book, SCREWING MY LAZY ASSISTANT'S LAZY ASS AND SENDING THE FAGGOT TO HELL.

yeah, i have alot on my plate right now. )':

though i may say that im really busy, i have to admit that i spend alot of time doing counter productive activities, such as reading 200 chapters of manga in less than 24 hours. obviously i spend most of my time being lazy, then realise at 10 something at night that i have a mountain load of unfinished work with looming deadlines. then i go into crazy workaholic mode and work until the wee hours in the morning. i honestly pride myself for being able to stay awake in school this morning after only getting 3 hours of sleep.

of course, zombie side-effects of sleep deprivation was included. basically, im mostly busy being lazy. sigh what a sad revelation.

NEVERTHELESS, i still get my work done (most of the time) on time (still bulldoze over deadlines alot) soooo the xinjin in the public's eye is still pretty much untarnished. I HOPE.

other than that, school's been ok, and life at home's been normal except for my lack of exercise. but that's only because im a fat lazy melon waiting for heart disease and obesity to come knocking on my door. k maybe not but i seriously lack the motivation nowadays because i couldn't care less about being fit now because there's no events to look forward too. not to mention that my jogging buddy's been very unbuddy-ish nowadays pms-ing like a sissy ass girl because of exam stress. can't blame people like that la. NO.MOTIVATION. )':

ah well, tomorrow if im up to it i'll go jog since the haze should clear off completely by then already. will probably have to start all the way from zero again. mmhm, that's the price of snacking on toast tapioca chips nutella raisin bread keropok etc during the one week hols.

BATTLE OF THE BULGE, I WILL WIN.


ciaoz. (: