i had siblings who didn't have brains the size of countries.
i didn't care how my results turned out.
i could actually run.
i had a different primary school life.


my god, so many what if's, and no answers. i feel so burdened by the fact that if i had chosen a different path in at a certain point in time, i would be living a completely different, possibly happier life.

then again, the mistakes we have made are the ones that have shaped us into whoever we are today. sometimes, silly mistakes have helped us make amazing friends in the process. then again, i wish i could have selectively chosen which mistakes i could have avoided and fixed them.

make the blemishes of my past go away.


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It’s funny how people throw this word around these days. You hear them say “I love him, I love her” When they have only just started dating each other. I’ve learnt from experience now that Love doesn’t come that easily. Love at first sight does not exist. Lust at first sight, however does. I get so annoyed watching people say they Love their partner when they barely even know who they are, they are so ignorant. They spend 5 days with them and automatically think they are now “in-love” because the other person makes them feel good about themselves. Makes them feel special and pretty, which quite honestly without that person they would not be. These people mistake the fine line between infatuation and love. A very wise friend of mine put things into perspective for me and now I think clearly; People like them do not have the necessary mindset to put themselves in a position of a relationship. Most people in our generation have a perception of a relationship where both partners maintain the level of intimacy they both have when they first meet; this doesn’t happen. When that ‘love’ so to speak and the dust starts to settle down, that is where the serious part of a relationship comes into effect. People who have a relationship built on lust, infidelities, cheating and lies will never survive once that lust becomes bordom. The relationship then becomes futile. These people attract insecurities and the wrong temptations within their relationship and evidently will get hurt in the end. Values and similarities between two people often get mistaken for the same thing. People might share the same activities causing them to have similarities and believe they are destined to be together, but if they don’t have strong values or share the same values, then the relationship again becomes futile once the hype of lust becomes the, all too familiar. Love isn’t a word that you should throw around at just anyone, I too have been a victim to this. Now I know better and can only hope that others do not choose a path of lust and infidelity and mistake it for love.

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tumblr gold, i tell you. the person who wrote this should preach to couples who totally confuse their infatuation with so called "true love". piss people off only la, this people who go all mushy-mushy on facebook and announce their relationship to the whole world and 2 weeks later, break up liao.

oh, what happend to, IM SO IN LOVEE ^_^\/


i'd love to see your future true love when he/she finds out that you had 40 ex-boyfriends/girlfriends (:

oh, how evil i am, to diss all these people. but heck, it's my blog and i say ALMOST everything i feel like saying whenver i want to. *big sheepish grin* :D

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i kinda have this sliver of regret for adding all the volleyballers on facebook now. they're all gushing about msss and im, well, gonna be taking exams on monday. im so, envious. then again, i have accepted the fact that im not good enough yet and i should be focusing on things that i can actually change like, MY EXAM RESULTS. so, with this last rant, i shall stop complaining about volleyball related things, and instead complain about study related things. HEHE (: