argh i told myself that i won't let constant fear of getting my results back bug me for now, but somehow whenever i think of something remotely related to the word 'failure' or 'exams' or 'it's over' my mind will automatically sway to this topic whether i like it or not. no seriously, this will probably the last few days that i'll be able to spend with a peace of mind because starting on monday, results will start flooding in and i expect a tsunami of tears to crash into my bedroom wall.


sigh sigh sigh. i wonder how my results will fare against my ridiculous expectations of myself. im starting to get the feeling that im extremely naive for thinking that i could maintain the results that im used to by putting in slightly more effort. if i fail anything this term, i'll probably condemn the rest of my year to continuous studying to make up for my failure. even if i don't fail anything, i already got one D so yeah, i will still condemn myself to continuous studying.

life, can be sad sometimes, no?

i never realised that exams could affect me so badly :/

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on a lighter note, i can finally watch my shows without feeling guilty about not studying (Y) not that the guilty feeling actually affected me that much, since i started watching my shows in marathon mode during the exam period anyways. BUT HOHOHOHOHOHO NOW THERE'S NO SUCH GUILT :P

and i can start exercising again ('': my body feels rather odd now. for too long already, my butt has been squashed onto the chair, burning close to no calories, doing nothing the whole day. im actually kinda disgusted at my lifestyle for the past month. must start working those muscles again. teen and child obesity rates are rapidly increasing, and i do not want to be another statistic -.-

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funny how writing comes so easy to me now, but writing a simple english essay during my exam took such a great effort to write. but thinking over, who would honestly be able to write fluidly about 'how to be a good malaysian' unless you're some patriotic fanatic. and the topics they gave for continuous writing were, kinda i don't really know what to say about it, but i expected something with more depth. i don't know. maybe they left the part of making it interesting to us. honestly, who gives 'a person i admire' as a topic anymore? that's like, something i'd expect to write when i was form 1, maybe, but not now.

ARGH XINJIN, STOP COMPLAINING ALREADY )":

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this is why, you should never let your friends interact with your dense little cousins. the outcome will be like so. this is too epic i tell you :PPPP

too funny too funny too funny!