argh, need to let it go already. i have never in my life left a single blank in my testpapers before. no matter how clueless, no matter how slim the chance of it being even remotely close to the real answer, i'll put something there.

and today, i blanked a whole page.

but whatever, i only lost a minimum of 20 marks. NO SWEATT. still by the school's stadrads pass.

by my own standards, i've failed already.

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oh and sejarah? my hand was a loaded gun ready to fire out bullshit. THE BULLSHIT HANDGUN. like wth mann, i didn't even know what crap i was writing for the essay. die die die die.

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people say the first term form 4 exams are easy. whoever said that should be skinned alive and rolled around in salt.

i've never felt so, depressed after an exam like this before. AHH, PART OF LIFE PART OF LIFE. SUCKK IT UP AND GET OVER IT, XINJINN.


there's still end terms to make up for this (:


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okehh, got closure liao. next time im facing this is when the paper comes back. :/ but oh well, that's for future me to deal with (: