i need to learn to accept the fact the fact that some people are just, more talented than i will ever be in some things. yess, if i were to have it my way, i would pwn in everything, but that wouldn't be fair so YEAHH.

people give and take. so what if some people are good at *catching frogs*. their attitude may be *sunshine daisies and fresh pine grass* and they may *have cow milk* at their studies. it's okay. all is well and good.

footnote ; *_____* means you can change the words inside to anything you want :P



stop being such and asshole xinjin, and start being proud of other people's achievements instead of cursing them so that *grass grows out of their toenails*

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1 week over, 3 days to go. exams are sapping my energy away, seriously. honestly i hope that this experience ends and i can go and enjoy myself. arghhh, i long for the moment of relief when the teacher says *time's up* on the last paper.


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i will wait patiently. by this time next week, i am a free girl. free to do as i please with my time, instead of feeling bad for not studying.


and i can finally have time to start exercising again <3


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i wanna go for the AXN big challenge! ): but i obviously can't run the thing alone and i need like 2 fit people above 18 to form a team. haiyoh. dream crashed and burned already. screw it. i'll run the energiser night marathon next year whether or not my mum lets me. they have cool shizz t-shirts yo. NEON COLOURED SHIRTS ARE THE BOMB. and they give free headlamps too. DEFINITELY GOING BEFORE MY HIGH SCHOOL LIFE ENDS.

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speaking about stuff i want to do before i leave school (which is sadly, in less than 1 1/2 years to go). i think i'll list out some of the things i want to do (and some that i have already done, just to feel good about myself) before i graduate. (:


1. climb the roof of the hall.
2. climb over the gate across the school hall
3. perform on the stage.
4. climb the platform above the stage in the hall.
5. break a window pane. :P
6. paint a mural.
7. run 12 rounds around the school field.
8. get into MSSS.
9. get a really, really nice jersey.
10. win a medal during sports day. )':
11. take the javelin throwing event.
12. win a gold medal.
14. burn my books on the school field after SPM and dance around it.
15. purposely fail a class test/ exam paper.
16. GO FOR XPDC.
17. designed t-shirt and badges
18. break a chair.
19. do something completely outrageous to remember the good times (:
20. ponteng school (kinda, sorta did :P)

LIST WILL BE UPDATED.

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you know, it doesn't seem the same anymore, now that you're the way you are. it's not like im asking you to dance to my beat, or asking you to put me in front of every other thing that you have. yes, your situation is, different from mine. different enough to put up invisible walls around certain matters.

the small things that show distrust in others, actually hurt. i feel like i don't know you anymore. and honestly i get the feeling that you couldn't care less anymore.

but that's okay. live your life the way you want to. there's so many things i'd like to say, but i don't, because i think that nothing will change for the better. in fact, if i let my tongue slip, it might even get worse. there are so many things i disapprove of, but i keep my mouth shut about it.

cause i refuse to cross whatever imaginary line i have drawn for myself on these matters. (: and i think it's better that way, that i stay specifically in one part of your life, without intruding into the other.

(: