i need to, stop and take a look at where my life's going for a moment.

i realised that i haven't had a chance to review my life at all, this whole year. i know im busy. and tired. and stressed. and too caught up in the change of pace and new responsibilities. every spare moment i have, im asleep like a dead person. every other moment is dedicated to club work, volleyball, homework, tuition and *insert something stressful*. tell me how not to go crazy la.



PSHTTT I NEED A HOLIDAY, REALLY. come to think of it, i don't remember the last time i actually felt bored. every free period in class is used to catch up on sleep. even though it's not a free period, i still sleep.

sleep > study. anytime.


my god i don't even have the time to maintain normal human interactions anymore. seriously, AFTER VOLLEYBALL SEASON IS OVER, I PROMISE TO RESUME NORMAL RELATIONSHIPS WITH OTHER HUMAN BEINGS SO TO REGAIN SANITY.

but i must confess, without being so busy, i think i'll just waste away. sure, my results will proabably return to their original tip-top position, and i'll have a decent amount of time to watch tv, do my homework and sleep well every.SINGLE.DAY. but deep inside of me, i know that will never be enough. i realise that there's this streak that i inherited from my dearest sister. i have to be on the edge all the time. not that i don't enjoy being relaxed and content, but i guess a life of endless possibilities does suit me better, even though it leads to extreme lack of sleep, emotional stress and mental instability. thus, cementing my opinion that and office job will never do for me.

but i always have this really bad feeling that all this stress is going to take it's toll on me without me realising it soon enough. sure, while i'm in the middle of enjoying myself in court i don't really feel anything but erm, fun, but afterwards, when i get home at like 7pm, i feel TIRED.LETHARGIC.ZOMBIE-LIKE. i wonder if in the long run, i'll feel like i've used up all my pure enthusiasm in my 17 years of life and i'll be unable to summon anymore of that when i get older. NAH, WON'T HAPPEN.

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i need a really lengthy chat with pn ernice, i miss her la )': i only realised this week, how much crap she took from us, and still stayed with us right up till the end. i realised how much we really took her for granted, and no matter how my other team mates remember her, she'll still be the most dedicated teacher i'll remember.


last year's (:



this year's favourite (: SUNBURN LIKE SIALLL I TELL YOU.

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just a reminder to people who are in relationships (YES, ALL OF YOU.), you often don't realise how much your best friend feels sidelined. do you not realise how awkward we feel when you're constantly on the phone while we're trying to keep up a conversation? do you not realise how icky we feel when you get all mushy mushy with your other half?

DO.YOU.NOT.REALISE.HOW.WE.THINK.OUR.IMPORTANCE.LEVEL.HAS.DECREASED.

well, now you do. take a hint please. kthxbai.

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OH, YES. WHERE TO GO FOR YOUTH EXCHANGE. IDEAS, PEOPLE? obviously japan is out of the picture. radiation leaks + ultra paranoid parents does not equal permission to go there. and im actually really really pissed about that. hell no i don't wanna go to taiwan. ideas, please? (:

i might even go next year, just so i can go to japan. the only reason i joined leo, is so that i could participate in this okay. SUCK IT UP, LEO-CRAZY WHATEVERS.


okay, this is getting too long. BYE NON-EXISTENT READERS (:


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