okays, there's a few thing's i'd like to accomplish in the next few months.

1. clean up my attitude.

i've come to the realisation that im not a very friendly person. i realised that i act like a complete biatch to cover up my feelings of nervousness or inferiorities. not cool yo, not cool. i've made it a point to be totally conscious of this ugly trait of mine, and im making it a priority to fix this. i feel supremely disgusted at myself for acting like so. i've only realised this like 10 seconds ago. my god, i've been such an asshole.

thank you, mssd, for helping me realise this trait of mine. next year, i will come back completely different (:

i will be consciously aware of the faces i give towards other people and i will definitely, attempt to be more friendly. after all, it's always good to see nice people (:


2. i shall not solely judge a person's character based on the gossips of other people.

it's bad, to conclude that people are complete asses only by the word of mouth. i don't like that being done to me, and hell to the no, i will not give people that similar treatment.

i shall only judge someone when i actually get to know him/her.


3. i will not neglect my studies like i have anymore.

this, has the least possibility to succeed, but oh well, i might as well put it up to make myself feel bad in the future if i do not heed the promises i have made to myself. (:


4. i shall not blindly believe in anything that's not meant to ever happen.

at least, things that are not meant to happen at the present time. like getting into msss, that can wait for another year. another year of blood, sweat and tears. but ah well, i can be patient for at least that long. (:

the time shall come for everything.


5. i will keep my ill feelings towards others to myself.

because, spreading the hate is a shallow and lowly thing to do. i've been brought up to shun giving people a bad name. why should i stop practicing that? so what if im unhappy with something that person has done. the most i can do, is tell that person. at least i can save people a few minutes of their lives entertaining my ill thoughts.

yes, that is what i will do from now on. (:

6. i will make a greater effort to understand people better.

sometimes i find myself completely blind towards the situations of others. i don't want to blurt out the wrong things to people, again. i don't want to hurt people anymore than they already have been.


7. i will not be some self-important, narcissistic asshole. 'nuff said. 


& after much deliberation with the badass side of myself,


8. from after this post, i will immediately stop all saying all words such as bitch, and the infamous four letter word, except when referring to myself, and only myself.

i shall not refer to another human being, animal, plant, dog or platypus in such a degrading manner anymore. no, i will not even call matthew leong a female dog anymore, although he deserves to be called so. i guess i kinda had a spur of vulgarity this past few weeks, and i apologise. i have been indecent.

i am deeply shamed )':


and lastly,

9. i shall not let jealousy get the better of me.

accepting myself as i am, in the environment that i have been brought up in, and the family that i have. i will not let my jealousy of others get in my way of life. they have their own problems too.

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after reflecting on myself, i've realised, some of my traits that i would like to well, expel? well basically, i'd like to be a nicer person. i won't attempt to uphold the greater good in all situations, but i'd like to be as far away from being a mean prat as possible, without compromising my own share of fun (:


taaaa! (:

credits to sabbie for taking this really really creepy picture ;P