holy molie im so bloody tired. and i really should be sleeping but, it's 8pm. ONLY BABIES (and li shan) SLEEP THIS EARLY.


i cannot belive my dad bought a semi-DSLR yesterday. I JUST CANNOT. and it's the olympus pen. GOLLIE WOLLY THAT'S SO EXPENSIVE IT STINGS IN MY FRUGAL LITTLE HEART WHEN I HOLD THE THING. but i must say, it's freaking cool. the built in flash is cool. the fact that it's THAT small is cool. but still, expensive laaa ):

i don't feel like going for camp tomorrow. im just tired. the camp is basically gonna eat up my WHOLE weekend and i won't have any rest at all for the next week. no time to recharge mann. BEWARE OF ZOMBIE XINJIN NEXT WEEK. and seriously, i think being a senior means more work to do for the club. and having only a few members who are willing to do the bulk of the work isn't helping. it's hard.


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i think im afraid of responsibility. i know myself well enough that i like being praised and all. i mean, who doesn't like people telling you that you've become better after putting in effort? it's like a confirmation that you're showing progress, and somehow for me, the feeling of knowing that im better in something than i was is probably one of the most satisfying feelings in the world.

coming back to responsibility, im pretty sure that im a lazy person, and holding many responsibilities is probably something my that inbuilt character will not be able to accept, or hold. whatever. living up to the expectations of where im able to uphold whatever responsibilities people have entrusted me with has a scary effect on me.


for me, this year has been the year where there's been the most rain on my sunshine ; im bloody tired everyday. worn out from having to study nine important subjects.

ish mann, i don't think i'll ever get used to this pace of life. i bet even working people don't feel like this. at least they can like, take leave when they're sick. students get alot of shit when we don't get stuff done.


okay. i think i just said a buttload of crap. WHO CARESS. :D


g'night people (: