afterschoolspecial - name.

im bored. im more than bored, i feel this kind of emptiness. like i have no goal, nothing to look forward to achieving. it's a really weird feeling. usually in school, i have a few things to look forward to. and now, im floating around, doing absolutely nothing

it gives me too much time to think about unnecessary things. i start to doubt everything. i make stupid little revelations about me, and the people around me on a daily basis. and these revelations, i'd rather do without. ignorance is bliss, no?

and i now overthink the things im about to do, and the things i've already done. when it comes to deciding whether i really want to do something, i usually just go with the flow and follow what i want in the present moment, and it turns out pretty well most of the time. now, with all this extra spacing out time, i go through every little detail, and im usually left with a bleak picture, discouraging me from doing anything.

and for the things i've already done, i'll start going through everything again, like it's in real time. and then i'll start correcting myself and all. which sucks since im trying to create a better outcome out of everything i've done. which means that i have time to beat myself up about how my real time planning sucks beyond ordinary belief.

URGH. SOMEONE SHIP ME OFF TO BOOTCAMP OR SOMETHING DAMMIT.





kaybye.