i don't like it when people tell me what i should be. i like keeping my options open. to impose your hopes and wishes on me, is an insult to my free will. unfortunately, it's my future you're trying to toy with. and i don't want a job that i'll hate and end up dragging myself to work every morning.

okay so what if i don't want to become a doctor? did you know that surgeons are on call 24 hours every freaking day? sure, you save people yadah yadah yadah. but have you ever heard of loving thyself before you can love others? why can't i become a marine biologist? or maybe an environmental conservationist?

what's wrong with those jobs?

when i finally blurted out the words 'maybe i don't want to be a doctor', your only reply was 'sure. whatever you want. i'll even support you if you want to become a streetsweeper, garbage lady, whatever you want.' like wth? obviously you're disappointed in me.

instead you said that there's NO PROBLEM with doing a medical course locally. like hello, NO MALAYSIAN UNIVERSITIES ARE INTERNATIONALLY RECOGNISED WHEN YOU ARE APPLYING FOR A JOB OVERSEAS. NO, NOT EVEN OUR COVETED MALAYAN UNIVERSITY DAMMIT. how the hell am i supposed to secure job i want overseas in the future if lets say i graduate from uhh the medical faculty of UTAR, malaysia. DUDE, THAT'S A FREAKING ENGINEERING UNIVERSITY BTW.

why should i become part of the ever increasing second rate medical crowd in malaysia when i possibly could reap scholarships and possibly even better earnings in the future if i choose to go for other courses.

why is it that you insist that i should be THE VERY FIRST doctor in the family?

i don't like people imposing their own desires on me. it's frustrating whenever i try to talk to my mum about what to do in the future. there has not been even a single conversation where the word 'doctor' or 'medical' was not present when i was discussing future careers. NEVER.

there has not, and maybe there never will be, a conversation that i can freely discuss my future plans. i can never say 'maybe i just wanna design my own clothing line'. no, that's out of the question. i can never really express my future plans to my parents without them talking about something medical related and the whole conversation becomes somewhat a plan of entry into the medical world, which in the first place, was not what i wanted to discuss. i want to discuss future OPTIONS.

is this what your typical asian parent is like? surpressing your child's free will to choose a career path of their own liking?



sometimes, i just wanna make t-shirts and gorgeous bags.