more blisters. more pain. MORE SKILLS THOUGH. 




i don't feel so tired today. i actually thought i was pretty much okay but then, there was this form 2 boy who pretty much killed my own self satisfaction. it's okay. imma see him one of these days, and i'll make it a point to improve super duper fast just to show him. HERE COMES KIASU, AND IT'LL BLOW YOUR FACE OFF.

Far East Movement - Rocketeer feat. Ryan Tedder (Cover by Jason Yang)

i swear this is awesome possum. i haven't even heard the original version of this song, BUT THIS COVER IS AWESOMEE. argh, why i can't i play the violin like that too D: and i think i might have killed the replay button on  this one (:

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i realised today, that i need someone that's so tremendously better in something than i am for me to compare myself to, to improve in something. maybe it's because im so kiasu that i can't stand being inferior to someone, knowing that i still have the chance to improve and become better. i compare myself to this pro, and i set my bar to wherever this pro is. and i compete.

when i lose in something, i feel some sort of a volcano erupting in me. it's pretty scary when i feel it myself, but i guess it's this urge to be better than someone else that pushes me to my boundaries and directly improve my skills in something.

i guess it's a pretty good thing, but it gets annoying sometimes. beating myself up for failure is one thing.

another big downside of this is not being able to maintain my level of skill when im the best at something. it's like, when i have nobody to challenge me, i just stop improving. instead i deprove like super freaking quickly and i just lose interest in that particular thing. it's irritating.


i have to admit, I HATE LOSING. (oh wait, you probably already know :P)

Labels: grumbles., picked off youtube (: