of the spectrum.

lets say you got good marks for err lets say PJK. and everyone else gets like a B or something. they're in misery. they're devastated. and suddenly, so are you. soon everyone's freaking crabby and moody and feeling like a bunch of slob.

THIS IS WHY I HATE EXAMS. NO, NOT HATE, DESPISE.

nobody can be denied the chance to try their best. ever.

i think talking about results are just depressing. in the end, it only ever matters to YOURSELF concerning what you got. nobody's going to remember that you got a 49 for pjk or something. everyone else just forgets. i think that people shouldn't bring others into their misery, instead they should channel it into something like COMPLETE FEAR OF FAILURE. i practice that very often. i get sucky marks for something, i get scared and study like crap for the next term. that's the way i work.

then again i don't really study as hard as a lot of other people do. i count my blessings everyday. i thank my mum for chucking all those veggies into my unwilling mouth when i was small. im kind of grateful to my elder sister, for giving me something to look up to, something to pressure me to do the absolute best i can, just so i can have the satisfaction of beating the genius of my family.

love can blind people. people you love will never be as annoying as people you hate, although every attribute that you hate about a person that annoys you, is similar to a loved one.

and just now i realised, that my problems are normal, something that others have gone through and made it to the other side, as stronger, LESS TRUSTING people. i will keep in my mind, that for every time i see my life from a pessimist's point of view, someone wants to live like me.


omg. i sound CORNYY. ignore me (:

oh yes, did i mention that i've found a new love? (: THE FRISBEE. a disc that flies through the air with some kind of grace that seems totally alien to me. the disc that is SO FREAKING HARD TO CONTROL THAT SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE STRANGLING MYSELF but i eventually got the hang of it. and i finally have people to play with. awesome-ness. i think i've found a new form of exercise (:

i also like hello panda. you know that biscuit thingi with chocolate filling? NYUM NYUM. i could eat a whole tin of those in an hour. (:

tomorrow's gonna be a busy day.