it really did suck THAT much.

i don't really care that much anymore. it just comes naturally now, even though it's all out of complete spite and hatred. yummy yummy -.-

now you freaking know how i feel when im alone for 6 freaking hours on a freaking saturday where every freaking person has ditched my sorry ass and i don't have any other option than to talk to the stupid wall/ window.

im glad today's a holiday, you know? there's alot of things that are swirling around in my head and honestly, if we didn't have the raya holidays coming up soon, my tiny little head might just explode. come to think of it, i haven't even had the time to be happy for anything i've done for myself. hate really does devour the soul, doesn't it? it's like a thick, black cloud, enveloping your ability to think straight and you end up being pissed off most of the time.

joy, no?

i already know what i want to do after pmr. regardless whether if i have anyone to be there with me, even if people think it's stupid. like hello? im not going to go and raid 1u like every weekend. that'll be STUPID. (:

oh yes, yesterday i had a dream of my mum saying that she'll never upgrade my violin for me and i have to pay for it by myself if i want a new one. somehow, it seemed pretty real, and i wanted to cry my face off since my current violin sounds like the sound mice make before they die a horrid, inhumane death.

pmr in 4 weeks. HAHAHAHAHAHA IM DOOMED. ;D