i can only watch and feel, but influence nothing of the outcome.

do you feel detached in a way sometimes? like you're looking through a sheet of glass to see the world. most of the time, you don't notice it, but if you move it around a little, you can see only the reflection, and not the things on the other side.

soccerthon tomorrow. the jersey they gave us is freaking HUGE. i think their perception of SMALL is twisted. well, whatever. i gave the jersey to my brother. since it fits him perfectly D: and by the way, i expect to be smushed into smitherines tomorrow, considering my class is probably gonig up against 5c, which is full full full of girls who play sports, and will not even batter an eyelid if they happen to bang down one of my team members. FABULOUS.

i wish they would just set the date of the trials, once and for all. it's the third time they've changed it so far already, and i bet all of us are just sick and tired of all these stupid date changes. what if they suddenly change trials to like the 9th or something? i might just die if they did that.

oh yes, i lost my voice. almost completely. i sound like a dude who just hit puberty. or a radio that's spewing out rubbish when the signal isn't strong enough. it's annoying me. I CAN'T SAY ANYTHING WITHOUT LAUGHING LIKE AN IDIOT BECAUSE I SOUND SO FREAKING FUNNY.

funny how people pour out their lives on facebook. every picture, every emotion, every special little event. and all of this is made public to people you don't even know. inducing stalking, aren't we?

one day, i'll wake up and you will be out of my face, for good.