school was a complete waste of time today. free period the whole day, except for 15 minutes of the last period, which pn lee decided to squeeze in a little komsas and a ton of nagging on how we should be reading pretty useless and sometimes stupid bm novels. with all those twisty turny sentences which can even start of a story with the word Maka. complete waste of time school was.

even so, a few of us did have an ok time today, so i guess it wasn't ALL bad.

oh, did i mention that there's school tomorrow. wonderful. and there's an hour of bm. fantabulous. and an hour of geo too. pffft.

i want more training. i have never wanted to improve myself so badly in anything i've ever done before. it's crazy most of the time, i've been so alien to real passion before. sure, i claimed to be passionate about librarians before, but did i ever want to do work for the library. i guess not. volleyball is something i want to play all the time. during boring bm lessons, when im looking outside the window i sit next to. you name the time, im probably having the urge to play and improve. i guess it's an obsession (:

leo, huh? im really not as interested as i expected to be. somehow it's just, not for me. maybe the activities are supremeeeee fun which i am missing out as a member of leo, but i never do seem to take notice of them. pffft, maybe it's just another club i joined for the sake of joining. things might just change. but i doubt so.

projects and all are mostly not started or put on hiatus. im gonna be dead if i don't start soon.

im not allowed to go for the pulau kapas camp. my dad, as usual. sometimes, i just want trust and freedom. just for once.

my arm feels like someone threw it under a lawn mower. the destroyed feeling. it'll go away after awhile.

(: