oh, monday.

volleyball training was slightly depressing. well, that's mostly because i sucked at everything. trying to set a first ball was the start of that stupid downhill roll. then my setting was off. then i just couldn't react to anything. failure stinks.

then, there was this thing called jealousy that spiked up. all of my siblings got new phones. except me. i mean, how much does that SUCK, when you're like the only miserable one with nothing new to be happy about, and i bet you don't like seeing people happy when you feel like you're falling down a stinkhole either. i feel like a totally unreasonable little-miss-materialistic now. but then again, i guess i've already begun consoling myself with the fact that I AM MORE AWESOME THAN THEM. FOR BEING DIFFERENT, FOR PUTTING UP WITH THIS CRAP WITH NO MORE THAN A LITTLE BIT OF ANGER.

i haven't done that deco thing i was supposed to do yet. i don't know how long more i can stay commited to this 'club' that's brought me nothing but distress this year. i won't go so far to quit yet, but i think im inching very much closer to it than i ever was before.

math homework time. pn teh has returned to a semi-emo stage since some people in my class haven't exactly been doing their homework. mmph.