this week was kind of a disappointment, for me at least.

i couldn't even dig a single decent first ball and pass it to the setter. i feel like a failure, i tell you. then again, i CAN dig to a wall, why not a service ball? my mind's pretty much screwed up by this stupid thing and i don't like it. and what's even more irritating is that i could dig decent first balls before i started practicing against a wall. i swear, im going to prove her wrong, and get bobby to help me as we are both having the same problem. we will dig service balls till our fingers grow cold, i can tell you that.

the math test was an equally horrifying disappointment. 22/27? what the eff. even foocheeleong got effing higher than me. i feel like such a kiasu bitch right now, but deal with it. it's in the genes.

im kind of worried about next week. i just want to play against other people. you could do a better job than just shoving my weaknesses aside and making me be another person.

argh, american idol too, was such a let down. i swear, this is the worst season ever. i mean, THEY THREW OFF TYLER. WHAT THE *BLEEP* IS WRONG WITH THEM. THEY DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER TO THROW OFF THAT STUPID ALEX LAMBERT DUDE. AND NO, THAT ALEX LAMBERT DOESN'T EVEN COME CLOSE TO ADAM LAMBERT. STOP COMPARING.

pretty pissed off, i am. but then again, i do have stuff to be happy about (: